everyday i wipe my tears away.

I miss the passion, the desire, the hunger.
I miss the love.
It proves to me day after day what I want most.
& yet have never been able to have.
My priorities have fallen into school though for once.
I pour every ounce of sadness, happiness.
of anger, of loneliness.
I pour every emotion I feel into my work, though you may not see it I do.
I'm finally doing things in design that I've wanted to do.
Though our colors are limited right now, I'm using my tablet more and more.
It only fills a small hole that's in my heart, but it keeps me sane.
Besides school, I've constantly kept myself surrounded by people.
Trying to fill an empty void that's hard to plug up.
Everyone thinks I'm moving on, but truth is I'm not that strong.
I'm rather weak, very weak.
My creative/writing juices have been pumped up more.
Causing me to write more lyrical and poetic statai on my various webpages and such.
How can you get over a broken heart when there's no one there with the bottle of rubber cement?

And for the record.
Having a valentine only works if they actually talk to you (if not in person than by phone or via internet) on Valentine's day.
Waiting until 11:00 PM doesn't seem very nice to me.
& therefor, yesterday was basically ruined for me.
& only served to remind me how it'll always be.
I'll always have "someone".
yet, I'll always, always be utterly alone.
:/

and if you read this, & you know who you are..
i'd tell you to listen to the song i'm listening to now.
but it wouldn't reach your heart.
you'd still be distant. unreachable.
and i'd still be like this.
so there's no point :/

lady antebellum - all we'd ever need.