blue.

Besides not having internet in my room these days, I know have no unlimited texting.

I hardly get online anymore unless I'm in the lab in the Admin building (which is where I am now).

It's amazing no one comes down here.

There's 8 computers to my knowledge, all equipped with Adobe software.

And.

THERE'S COLOR PRINTING.

this lab should be the social spot for everyone on campus.

because you see, the only other color printing on campus is in the Design building.

but I suppose Nurses and Library geeks don't need color.

But that's such a sad life to lead.

I finally watched "This is It" with my mom today.

She started crying at the end because they ended the movie with one of her favorite Michael songs.

It was really good.

That tour would have been amazing if he wouldn't have died.

It's terribly heartbreaking really.

But anyway.

The nails on my left hand are a nice green, but I've yet to paint the right one.

I've been doing too much today to bother painting that side.

In less than two months I'll be 20.

More than likely no party.

Few gifts.

And I'll probably be doing nothing.

As this happens every year almost.

I've grown accustomed to it.

Though last year I had a party with Katey because our birthdays are the same day.

It turned out to be a disaster as I had my heart broken that day.

Then I almost bled to death.

so, birthdays aren't fun.

BURNED IS COMING OUT IN A WEEK!

The next book in the House of Night series.

I know I said i pre orded it.

But I had to cancel my order, blah blah blah, long story.

so I won't be getting it when it comes out.

but I will definitely be reading it asap.

PC & Kristen Cast sent out a teaser about a month ago and I wanted to bash my head in.

I've been excited for this new book for months.

And, I'm smiling again.

Even with impending doom at my fingertips, mountains of stress on my shoulders, & this ridiculous pain that won't go away, I've yet to feel sad today.

No, no ones given me roses (ew btw, I hate roses. so cliche).

No one made me a sandwich (losers).

I didn't win a million dollars (it could happen one day right?).

I'm not dating anyone new (thank god, I'd end up killing myself).

& I'm not talking to anyone (how can I with no phone or internet?)

Whether or not I'm free to do or be with who I want, I feel awfully inclined to stay this way.

It's like having a popsicle.

But you can't eat the popsicle because there's all these complications with the wrapper, and you have to give it time to settle down. (that made no sense at all).

But instead of getting a bowl of icecream, you're content to wait on said popsicle because it's your favorite and it's all that you want. (that made more sense hopefully).

I think that's about it.

I have class in 18 minutes.

so I should leave.

like now.

because the design building is a bit away from the admin building.

make that 17 minutes.

bai.

seriously.

I'm gone.

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