& if you don't read this, oh fucking well.

I find no reason to truly keep this particular blogger anymore.
So, I'm deleting it & making a new one.
If you have no interest in my well being then don't worry about it.
Don't follow me.
Don't subscribe to me ever again.
Don't look for me.
I'm done with trying to act like I'm okay to everyone else.
Waking up with bloodshot eyes is not my idea of beauty.
The most insensitive thing a guy could ever say to someone who loves him is "Just try and find a way to forget about me"
Really?
You've got to be kidding me.
I've already lost two people I cared about, and now this?
First a guy I was with for 9 months that I've known since I was 15.
Yeah, we got in a fight and we don't talk anymore.
Second, my ex from last April.

"Delete my number & forget me."
Well damn, what the hell is going on with the world?
Just because someone doesn't love me means I should totally forget them?
heh.
If I remember correctly from the song Ex's and Oh's by Atreyu.
"But I digress. After all this... You're just like all the rest."
I hate to compare, but it's a constant trend it seems.
Oh well.
Travel the world, meet wonderful new people.
& if you do meet that amazing girl that takes your breath away, I hope you remember how you promised this girl in particular forever over and over again.
You don't just fall out of love within two weeks.
Not unless you knew it wouldn't work from the start.
Now I know why you never told your sisters about me & why you referred to me as an "affair" when talking about your parents.
I'm not an affair of ANY person.
I'm not some girl you can fool with one day and then decide she isn't good enough the next.
I deserve happiness.
I deserve what I want.
I've put up with so much bullshit I'm absolutely tired of it.
When I love, I give my all.
Maybe that's a fault, maybe it's not.
I regret nothing.
So I'm terribly sorry that I wasn't "the one" for you.
Whatever.
I can't wait a lifetime for you to change your mind.
I could die tomorrow.
If I did, I surely would not be satisfied with my life.
I won't forget you, it's impossible.
Especially when I have things you gave me.
So whatever.
I'm done waiting right now.
Change your mind in the future?
You know my number.
Hopefully if you do change your mind years later, I might still love you.
I'm bitter, angry, annoyed, frustrated, hurt, & every other adjetive you could imagine right now.
I'd say fuck you, but no thanks.
I don't fuck someone if they don't care about me.