i found my place in the world.

i've taken so much for granted, it seems that i hardly deserve happiness.

though, i'll be without power for a few days.

no lights.

no nothing.

so there will be no sleep for sherry.

as i cannot fall asleep without the hum of my fan.

monet has grown so much and i fall deeper in love with her everyday.

she's grown almost as much as my feelings for travis.

i thought myself cold.

rigid & stoic.

it's been hard to open up to anyone.

but it's easy around him.

that blonde hair and those stunning eyes make my heart melt everytime i see him.

he's the cheese to my macaroni.

though i fear i shouldn't fall for him.

i won't have much of a choice if i do.

i mean, i shared a mini watermelon with him!

when you do that with a fellow, it's basically like having sex.

it's a huge step :]

lol, no joke.

no one can refuse a mini watermelon with all it's cuteness!

plus, when it's me that's asking, how could any guy ever think of saying no!

as a test, i asked multiple guys that i knew.

all said that they'd share a mini watermelon with me.

only one person asked why before answering, then said sure when i said just answer.

but travis was the only person i wanted to share it with.

so we ate it in his white truck in my drive way :]

ha ha. it was so cute.

he's cute.

some might say that i'm settling, but that's far from it.

i no longer think of the current or next boy that i'm with or interested in as my forever after.

i only think of the now.

because if i try to think of a future with them, i shall surely end up killing myself after the many heartbreaks i endure.

so for the moment, i'm happy.

that's all :]