you wouldn't believe your eyes..

"i get ten thousand hugs from ten thousand lightning bugs."

owl city - fireflies

the video is utterly breathtaking.

& the music makes me so happy.

:]

i'm home now.

i've been away for around two months, and i'm back in my environment.

some stuff happened, so idk what's next.

one chapter down, next one up.

so would you believe me if i said i've realized my mistakes?

i've been so caught up in dreaming of what i used to have, that i'm at a loss at what i had to gain.

so now, i'm in a small battle of my own.

all a girl really wants is love.

a shining knight.

though i'd settle for a geek in some tin foil.

when a guy looks you in the eyes and tells you you're beautiful, you're supposed to believe him right?

when a guy says he wants you as you want him, you're supposed to believe that too?

i wonder why it's hard for me when i get it so much.

not trying to brag or sound full of myself.

but it's pretty hard for a guy to not fall for me if he gave me the chance to squirm my way into his heart.

i'm a sweetheart.

i've melted the hardest and coldest of hearts before.

and yet, all i want now is a heart that's as soft as mine.

i figured i couldn't love after last time.

i haven't fallen for anyone since my last.

and that ended in july.

maybe that's a good thing for once.

i'm so used to being in relationships, that i never take the time to enjoy time with myself.

i want love.

i want compassion.

i want adventure.

i want what all those silly romance novels talk about.

except maybe not all the soft-core porn.

ha ha, jk.

being in his arms felt right today.

but hearing "i don't want to hurt you. i'm sorry" didn't feel right.

how am i ever supposed to believe someone when they tell me one thing, then apologize the next and tell me no?

have i only inuyasha to keep me company for the rest of my life?

i know i'm worth the trouble.

i'm worth a lot.

but i want to know that other people think that way too.